Are you happy today? Do you feel the sense of fulfillment? Are you content with where you are in your life?
I ponder the above questions almost everyday. No, scrap that, I ponder the above a few times a day especially these days. Am I the only one? I hope not. I don’t want to be the only one around here who feels pretty lost. I, the thirty something professional who’s supposed to be a pretty clever one, am lost in life.What makes me happy? I am not sure.
Why don’t I have answers to any of my questions?
Maybe it’s time to ask me different questions.
What do I like to do?
Where do I want to be?
What’s important in my life?
For sure, everything I do don’t make me feel miserable right? I must do some things that I enjoy.
Maybe I am just spoiled. Yeah maybe that’s what it is. I got my education and I got a secure job and I got a good boyfriend (who is often too busy for me 😦 )… my family…. hmmm… they are supportive of me but my family does have a share of problems…. my parents are well off enough that I don’t have to support them. I am not married and I don’t have any kids…
So in summary, I just have to be responsible for ME and MY HAPPINESS.
If I were married with kids and were to take care of my parents, then maybe I wouldn’t have been able to afford time to ask and ponder about these questions. But since I am single and makes decent money and not too sure about my current job, maybe it is a natural thing for me to seek “MORE” in life?
Or am I just missing whatever that I am missing?
Where am I? What is this confusion that I find myself right in the middle of?
– missK (aka kooljaek)